Wednesday, January 26, 2005
What a week it has been in the life of my youngest! She has begun solid food, she has learned to crawl, and just now I discovered her first tooth. And I just put my maternity clothes away! Where did the wee one go? With each child, this first year gets faster and faster, and seems to break my heart more deeply. Of course, it has it's own joys, watching the progress a healthy baby makes, I just wish I could slow things down a little. I have this constant nagging feeling that one day, I am going to turn around and it's all going to be over. Is this desire to slow time down one of the yearnings we have for heaven; permanant, unchanging joy? Love without loss? Love without fear? I have always thought the birth process prepares women for death, and now I am finding the mothering process prepares us for heaven. I am working on a more elaborate post regarding the birth process and preparation for death. Until then, I will toss these little musings out, and see what happens.