Well, just posting this is a small success!
I have managed to go to the lactation consultant twice now, and have become competent at using the breast pump. I have never used one before. Baby takes the bottles well, and I have never had a baby do that before, either (at her age, any way). The current plan is to breastfeed Melanie, then have someone feed her a previously pumped bottle while I pump another one for the next feeding. She is taking an hour to breastfeed, and according to the lactation consultant's scale, getting the same amount as 5 minutes with the bottle. Her latch is poor and her suck week. Hopefully she'll get bigger and stronger and that will improve. But for me, it is a huge success to admit I needed advice, take the advice, and follow through. Usually I am an "I can do this myself" type.
**Edited to add ~ I just got TWICE the volume in my last pumping session YES!!**
I brought up my vaccination concerns with the new pediatrician we have. I was never able to be that straight forward before, usually just "avoided" and now, feel like an actual adult.
Found and purchased new walking shoes. Now I am waiting for actual time away from lactating to go for a walk, but it is a step in the right direction!
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