Blogging is quite odd, really. I have loved getting to know the people I have conversed with via blogs, and am glad I have had this experience. But on the other hand, it is quite unsettling to have a regular commenter stop commenting, someone I would call a "friend". Are they just busy, or are they moving on to other, more exciting blogs? After leaving an in depth comment, that gets no reply, does that mean they didn't like it, or they just had nothing to add? The blog conversation is unlike any other I have had. I guess I don't know the rules, if there are any. If someone stops commenting, what does it mean? (I don't have a counter or anything. I only know if someone visits if they leave a comment). If I want to address them directly, is it appropriate to do so over my blog, or in a comment on an unrelated post on their blog? If someone who encourages me stops commenting, am I wearing them out, do they think I don't need it anymore, or have they moved on to share the love with other bloggers?
Bottom line, I am not sure I need this extra anxiety in my life. I have to decide if the value of having this nice community at my fingertips is worth more than the self doubt and insecurity that it has dredged up in me.
Maybe I will just make this blog a place to put out there my thoughts and ideas, for what ever they are worth, and any comment is just frosting on the cake?
Anyway, I went to a retreat this weekend, "Every Woman's Journey" given by Katrina Zeno. Very good. We had to dig deep to answer some spiritual questions, and all that scraping off bottom of my soul left me in a rather disrupted state for a few days. But I feel better now, much more whole, and ready to make a sincere gift of myself to the world.
I think that is how I will approach blogging, as a gift, without worrying what I get back in the way of comments. Take if for what is, then, stuff I hope you will find enjoyable, worthwhile, helpful. Blessings to you all, then, my friends.
P.S. Akeyah - I couln't find you. Please don't leave without saying goodbye!