While I was on vacation, I had time to read and reflect on a series of spiritual imperatives from a book "The Inner Voice of Love" by Henri J. M. Nouwen. Through him, I have been receiving the tender mercies I have been searching for from those around me. But I don't really have the guts to tell people the real me or listen to their real answers. So in this book, I am finding my voice, as well as the Tender Voice of God in response. I realized I am looking for communion and unconditional love, and I am actually begining to believe My Dear Savior, Jesus Christ, is The One I will lean on, turn to and receive comfort from. He will fill my holes, feed my soul (I mean really, actually, and truly feed my soul, in The Blessed Sacrament), and nurture my heart. He is the Divine Healer, and I can feel His anointing in my soul. Later today, I will post an excerpt from this book, an imperative that opened my eyes and heart. Til then - blessings!
(Please excuse mistakes, no time to proof!)
Here is the spiritual imperative I was referring to. I bolded the places that I had underlined as I read.
Stop Being a Pleaser
You have to let your father and father figures go. You must stop seeing yourself through their eyes and trying to make them proud of you.
For a long as you can remember, you have been a pleaser, depending on others to give you an identity. You wanted to give your heart to others, and you did so quickly and easily. But now you are being asked to let go of all these self-made props and trust that God is enough for you. You must stop being a pleaser and reclaim your identity as a free self.