Construction ahead
Just the other night, I was driving home rather late from my dear sister-in-law's home. She lives in the country, with a beautiful farm and 5 acres. I had stayed after a garden club meeting for a while, and was driving home on the tollway through farm country. Now, I don't have the best vision in the world, and at night, in the dark country, I am more uncertain.
I was tooling along, listening to a totally cool new CD, when up ahead, I noticed many baracades, flashing lights, reflectors, and orange merging signs. Obviously construction of some sort, but what concerned me was I could not see which direction the road went. I did have the orange signs indicating it would curve to the left, but all I could see ahead were the baracades. Sitting up straighter, holding the steering wheel with both hands, my grip becoming much tigher, and a little sweaty, I squinted and strained to tell what was up ahead. Increasingly nervous, I was trying to get an idea before I got to the detour where I would have to go. Depite my most valiant attempts, no amount of straining the eye or prognostications could tell me where I was to go. I realized I would just have to wait until I got there before I would be able to see which way the road went.
BAM!!! Then it hit me. I need to live my life this way. I spend so much energy straining and struggling to figure out which way my life is going to turn, I feel as if I am white-knuckling each day. Struggling, straining, sweating, worrying, wondering. I am tired, and tense. It is so exhausting to try to know the future. As I learned in a very real way just the other night, if I just relax, follow the road until I get to the uncertainty, I will be able to see and navigate the curves in my road.
I haven't had such a moment of clarity in a long time. I have been praying about all the fears I have, asking Our Lord to ease my mental burdens. This lesson was so perfect, I heard His message loud and clear. Let today's troubles be sufficiant for the day. He will lead me through the curves and narrow passages, but not until I get there.
Hope you all have a blessed day!
I was tooling along, listening to a totally cool new CD, when up ahead, I noticed many baracades, flashing lights, reflectors, and orange merging signs. Obviously construction of some sort, but what concerned me was I could not see which direction the road went. I did have the orange signs indicating it would curve to the left, but all I could see ahead were the baracades. Sitting up straighter, holding the steering wheel with both hands, my grip becoming much tigher, and a little sweaty, I squinted and strained to tell what was up ahead. Increasingly nervous, I was trying to get an idea before I got to the detour where I would have to go. Depite my most valiant attempts, no amount of straining the eye or prognostications could tell me where I was to go. I realized I would just have to wait until I got there before I would be able to see which way the road went.
BAM!!! Then it hit me. I need to live my life this way. I spend so much energy straining and struggling to figure out which way my life is going to turn, I feel as if I am white-knuckling each day. Struggling, straining, sweating, worrying, wondering. I am tired, and tense. It is so exhausting to try to know the future. As I learned in a very real way just the other night, if I just relax, follow the road until I get to the uncertainty, I will be able to see and navigate the curves in my road.
I haven't had such a moment of clarity in a long time. I have been praying about all the fears I have, asking Our Lord to ease my mental burdens. This lesson was so perfect, I heard His message loud and clear. Let today's troubles be sufficiant for the day. He will lead me through the curves and narrow passages, but not until I get there.
Hope you all have a blessed day!
posted by Renee at Thursday, August 25, 2005
7 Comments:
Just stumbled across your BLOG and read this post. Amazing how deeply it touched me. I too struggle with every single day preparing for a future I know nothing about. I worry about my daughter, my mother and lastly, myself. I hope to come to your clarity real soon before I make a wrong turn.
Thank you.
Ahh, trying2beme, the clarity came, and went, and I must reach back to the memory to calm myself. I wish lessons learned were learned forever, no?
wow...you just hit the hammer on the nail. what an amazing revelation. praise GOD.
GOOD ONE!!!
I told her to put this on the BLOG --DH
Very nice, thanks so much for the reminder. Needed it today. :)
Well, I'm adding you to my blogroll. I find you interesting and talented. I'm new to this blogging thing, started my own just days ago...it's kinda fun, ya know?
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