Always Come Back to the Solid Place
Below is from The Inner Voice of Love by Henri Nouwen. This is my spiritual imperative for today.
You must belive in the yes that comes back when you ask, "Do you love me?" You must choose this yes even when you do not experience it.
You feel overwhelmed by distraction, fantasies, the disturbing disire to throw yourself into the world of pleasure. But you know already that you will not find there an answer to your deepest questions. Nor does the answer lie in rehashing old events, or in guilt or shame. All of that makes you dissipate yourself and leave the rock on which your house is built.
You have to trust the place that is solid, the place where you can say yes to God's love even when you do not feel it. Right now you feel nothing except emptiness and the lack of stregth to choose. But keep saying, "God loves me, and God's love is enough." You have to choose the solid place over and over again and return to it after every failure.